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Aja!
29 August 2008 @ 02:06 pm
There's a scanner in my office that sounds like "you's a hooooo"
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Current Music: The Pack
 
 
Aja!
25 May 2008 @ 10:31 am
I was just shocked into consciousness again, but this time it wasn't a delivery guy, though just the other day the UPS guy thought it was a good idea to bang on every window and door he could find (I definitely did not come to the door). This time it was the handy man guy that the landlords hire to fix things and water grass and stuff like that. I woke up to the sound of someone trying different keys in my lock. I got out of bed, opened the door and found that dude trying to get in my room. He said, "The landlord said nobody was here and the air conditioning is on so I was supposed to turn it off." I said, "Well I am here," and shut the door. Why would he or the landlord think I wasn't here? I signed a one year lease and I never gave any indication that I would be leaving for the summer. The fact that I live in this shitty house shows that I can't afford to pay rent here and live somewhere else. No one even knocked or called me to find out if I was home or just to ask me to turn off the a/c myself.

I need to move.
 
 
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Aja!
02 May 2008 @ 09:07 am
Hm ok last night's party was interesting... not really what I expected at all. I didn't think anyone would even come, but there were more people there tonight than ever before... crazy yo. Max brought his friend Lauren, who I had never met before. I'm really glad she came, I like her a lot!

Terrible things have been afoot. Yesterday the bracelet I always wear for inspiration and luck broke. Maybe I can fix it... but I cannot fix my bong D: she cracked this weekend and so did my heart. Kevin helped me put a sealant in the crack. I haven't tested it yet... maybe she won't leak anymore, but she still has a huge crack and she will never be the same. I am devastated. The past few months have really be a test of my sanity. I know that I have a lot and I am grateful for what I have, but I feel like I've lost a lot in a short period of time. It's not that I've lost money or that my quality of life isn't great. But I've lost some things that were really important to me: my bracelet, my bong, and of course most significantly my grandma. I know the bracelet and bong may not seem like that big of a deal, but they both meant a lot to me. Ok here's me trying to be an optimist: maybe losing things that hold a lot of significance for me is just a sign that new things are coming. Maybe I just have to let go of some things before I can accept change.

uh oh... hot teacher strikes again O_O
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Aja!
03 April 2008 @ 09:14 pm
What do I wear?! People will be here any minute. This is the worst kind of Hot Potato.
 
 
Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: Peaches - Impeach My Bush (great album!)
 
 
Aja!
02 April 2008 @ 04:05 am
Today I realized that I totally identify with Nikki from Heroes. I didn't like her very much before, but now I understand. We've got good intentions but make mistakes sometimes... then the other one comes out and says, "YOU FUCKED UP EVERYTHING, YOU FUCKED IT ALL UP. NOW I HAVE TO CLEAN UP YOUR FUCKING MESS SO YOU JUST SIT THERE QUIETLY AND FEEL BAD ABOUT YOURSELF."

Also: quick rant. It's annoying when people feel the need to ask me if I'm high or to tell me that they always know when I am. Hey, clerk, you don't actually know what you're talking about. Why do you think that you know all about my smoking habits, that you're in on the joke? I think you should try to abandon that idea, it is letting you down. Don't be such a fucking knobchecker.

-Jessica
 
 
Current Location: bedroom
Current Music: Joanna Newsom
 
 
 
Aja!
28 March 2008 @ 10:42 am
I work in an office on campus with teachers. Hot teachers. Today one of the hot teachers walked in and was being really hot. After he left, one of my co-workers asked me, "Is he a hard teacher?" My initial thought was "mmm... hard teacher..." I knew I couldn't say that out loud but my mind was still distracted thinking about hard teacher, so I think my response was "I don't know if he's hot!" She kind of just looked at me. Then, I decided it was best to stop trying to say things out loud.

But yeah dang there are a few distractingly attractive men here. *sigh*
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Current Location: work
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Aja!
17 March 2008 @ 02:04 am
I know it's very tempting. Man, I am so glad for Flight of the Conchords. I can't even explain.

I'm in Oakland now. I had to retrieve the smushers I left here. Mission accomplished. Returning home tomorrow! Can't wait to see L~ (don't worry, L, your true power will be known soon).

My mom wanted to go buy Bare Minerals today... you know, from that infomercial you've seen at least 50 times? And she bought some for me too!! Now I can swirl, buff and tap!
 
 
Current Location: mom's apartment
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: FotC!
 
 
Aja!
02 March 2008 @ 09:56 pm
What the fuck... when did March happen?

So yesterday my mom wanted me to drop her off at my uncle's house. I didn't really want to go inside with her because I didn't want to stay long and I knew that I would have to if I went inside, but my mom assured me that that was not the case. She so lied. When I walked in, my uncle and this lady Ann Foster (I like her a lot... more on her later) were working on a song for the funeral and they wanted to record a reference track. Ann was saying, "I wish I didn't have to sing it myself, my voice sounds terrible." So my mom says "Aja can sing" and volunteered me to record the track for them. So I learned the song and recorded the track. Then everyone decided that they wanted me to sing it at the funeral instead of some other lady who was going to do it. I agreed. The song was written by my late great-uncle. It's called "A Teacher's Prayer" and is kind of classical/gospelly I guess. My grandma used to be a teacher... she started when she was about my age, so I think that's why they wanted me to sing it. That and the "purity" of my voice... I'm not exactly sure what that means but people keep saying it over and over. The funeral is tomorrow and I'm not really sure how it will go. I'll find out soon enough.

Anyway, Ann is a real cool lady. She's an amazing piano and organ player and she's got such great charisma and personality. I really like working with her. My mom told me today that Ann's hand was cut off when she was 9! The doctors were just going to complete the amputation but Ann was like FUCK THAT SEW MY MOTHER FUCKING HAND BACK ON. Maybe that's not verbatim but I love her for having that attitude. I feel that so often... the FUCK THAT feeling. It usually comes when people just accept (or expect me to accept) something that doesn't totally rock. Fuck that.
 
 
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Aja!
29 February 2008 @ 01:35 am
Yesterday was a great day! Camille and I got together to enjoy the beautiful weather and eat and study. Then, when we realized it was ridiculous to keep pretending to study, we decided to go piece shopping. We went to Venice Beach and I bought a water bong and a grinder!!! I've been wanting a bong for a while and this one is exactly what I dreamed of: it's the perfect size (big enough to thoroughly enjoy but still small enough to be convenient) and it has an ice catcher! I've yet to find a name. Maybe I'll take a picture when I get back from Oakland. But probably I'll be too blazed to remember to do a thing such as that. Anyway, after that I went to Kaya's for mother-daughter (and Aja without a mom or a friend -- except I had the friend that is Max. Oh and Jake too :D) Project Runway night. Then Kaya and Max and I drove around and did some cool things. Then I went home, pioneered the bong (beautiful!) and went to bed. I can't remember the last time I was so happy. :D

I got to Oakland tonight. I was going to come tomorrow morning but my godmother (who drove) decided she wanted to leave today. Tomorrow will be a busy day helping my mom with all the funeral organizing and trying to find something to wear to the funeral. Hopefully I can find a white dress or something. I will not wear black. Yeah I'm sad because I miss Grandmommy, but more importantly I'm just so overwhelmingly happy that I had such a beautiful woman in my life. That warrants celebration, not depression.

Also, I've heard that Saturday is Hook Up With A Jew day? Dang, I won't be near my favorite jew. ):
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Current Location: mom's apartment
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Current Music: it'll be Erykah Badu's new album as soon as I finish this
 
 
Aja!
26 February 2008 @ 05:24 pm
dang  
Well dang the songwriting isn't going so well. I've gotten as far as holding a pen over a blank page. I just don't know how to express... what needs to be expressed. The hardest part is trying not to write about my grief... that's not the point at all but it keeps coming through. I can't figure out how to say what she meant to me, to all of us. Now I'm running out of time. Well sort of... the programs are being printed tomorrow, but I guess I could still sing without being on the program (the funeral is on Monday). I considered singing a song that's already been written, but it wouldn't mean anything. I guess pressing on is all I can do right now... I can't focus on anything productive. :/
 
 
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Current Music: "I Feel Everything" - Idina Menzel